My Body is Starring in a Sci-Fi Movie: Month 4 Cycle2, 1/2 Week

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

(Psalm 73:26 ESV)

Isn't it wild how God will sustain us? When we suffer and have nothing left, God is who He said He is. His promises are true, He will never leave us nor forsake us. His word will never return void. Its wild that even in the midst of our worst moment, God is still good.

This week was my “half week.” I started a new medication that is to be taken alone, without any other antibiotics IV or oral, for the first half of this week. It kind of seems that with each new med, we open a fresh new hell. This medication has affected the muscular skeletal neuro paths in my body, makes me feel like my body is the main character in some creepy Sci-Fi alien movie. I’ve been experiencing a lot of pain, especially in my muscles, nerves, and joints. This pain has been severe most of the time, feeling like something is busting through my muscles and fire is shredding my nerves. I’ve also been very fatigued, definitely in a general full body way, but especially in my muscles, almost like they turn to mush. I have had increased inflammation, even visual swelling in joints. I am continuing to have a difficult time with my eyes and my skin. We are still looking at options in how to help with those difficulties. I am trying to work on balance and listening to my body. Anything I may do no matter how simple needs a good amount of rest and recoup time.

So when I am not hooked up to an IV/ taking meds or detoxing, I have been trying to rest. There is not much more I can do. I think at this stage it is what it is, just keep trusting God with the process and the doctors He has given me the opportunity to work with.

A few joyful highlights this week include a beautiful vibrant double rainbow on Monday. I saw parts of it, but later saw a lot of local folks posting the full bright double rainbow. There is also a male and female goldfinch, one of my favorite birds, that have been spending a lot of time on a birdfeeder a friend gave me. If that wasn't wonderful enough, two hummingbirds have been very active on their nearby feeder. Another pocket of joy, early in the week was that I got to talk connect with a couple friends on Marco Polo early in the week, which was really encouraging. There several fun Nikki-grams and a perfectly timed card from my aunt that came this week. I am loving my sister Lydia’s family being here. They, as well as Mom and Dad, have all been helping me with a project I am doing to celebrate Rebe's marvelous light this week. Each spurt of time with them had been like medicine to my soul.

This week please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I approach a very full week with several doctor appointments, celebrating loved ones, and remembering the life of a very precious friend of mine. Also, be praying for my eyes, my nerve and muscle pains, that my rest/sleep will be multiplied, that as each day arrives, I will be able to withstand any obstacles, for answers for my chronic eye and skin issues, as well as bandage central line concerns, and my God’s sustaining with the mental/emotional challenges.

THANK YOU so much for following my journey. I so appreciate your prayers, love, and support.

“Time is not a cure for chronic pain, but it can be crucial for improvement. It takes time to change, to recover, and to make progress.” -Dr. Mel Pohl